you dont matter

“You don’t matter”
I keep telling myself that every single day
I know it doesn’t seem like that greatest line to say
But I never say it
It’s always demonstrated to me
When I try, and try
To make someone at least a little bit happy
When I try to make a difference in someone’s life
When I care more about the person than anyone else ever did
I didn’t pretend to care, I just realized that I actually, mutually did
But even after how much I did you never did the same for me
I was still lost within my problems
I was still hurt by all things around me when I thought you would be the only exception from things that hurt me
You know I might sound a little betrayed but I cant hate you
I never really asked you
But I honestly thought that I would at least matter
That I could maybe make a difference in your life
To at least have someone miss me if I where to be gone
I just wanted to matter
I just wished you would care
But I guess you didn’t have to.